Blog: Exceeding Expectations WCG 2009

It has been two years now since I started competitive gaming. I have come so far and exceeded all my expectations as a player. I have traveled to numerous cities, worked with high profiled sponsors, and have risen to the top of my respective game. As I am preparing for my second consecutive World Cyber Games US national final, I am in astonishment at how I even got here. I have a lot of people to thank for helping me achieve what I have today. However, while my competitive personality is an attraction to some, it is also an intimidation to others. My presence sometimes is seen as a threat and my words under certain light may come off as provoking. But it’s who I am and gaming is what I am passionate about. I might offend a few people along the way but I am not afraid to speak my mind. What I have learned in the last two years is that I can’t please everyone and the only way from me to grow is to continue to do what I believe in. And that is to continue competing in what I do best whether it is PC or console.

With less than a week left before the national finals, I am still pushing myself very hard every day to improve as much as I can. Over the last three weeks I have practiced nonstop every day and have made tremendous progress as seen through my full combo videos. I never expected that I could be playing as well as I am and even more so, doing it in such a short time. I am at the point where I can see the realization of my dream becoming possible. Yet, somehow I still feel unsure about how I will perform next weekend. When I think about all the effort and time I have put into preparing for this tournament, and how easily I could lose it all in just a split second if I miss even one note, it makes me wonder if it’s worth it at all. In the back of my mind I question if everything I’m doing is going to be for naught. As I doubt myself, however, I am reminded by a close friend that I can only go so far relying on my own strength and ability. I know I have done everything I can to prepare for this tournament and the rest is out of my hands. I learned that the best way I can gain confidence is by letting go of my worries and letting God take care of the rest. As a result, I am able to put my mind at ease.

Attending the national finals isn’t all about competition either. I look forward to hanging out with last year’s competitors and meeting the new ones as well this year. There will also be a lot of my friends that are attending so I am excited to catch up with everyone. I am not sure if there will be live coverage of the event but be sure to follow my twitter to get tournament updates. Most importantly, I am just thrilled to be in NYC again and competing in one of the largest and most celebrated tournaments in gaming. Wish me luck, I hope to make history!

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Take a look back at some memories from last year’s WCG National Finals: